A GUY DAT WILL BE THER WHEN I NEED HIM

da person inside da pitc is sum1 dat i love so much , not as a boyf yea . haha . mayb as a fren or a brother . bcos he always be ther when i need him . he always be ther to listen mai probs , evry probs he would listen nd he would try his best to advice me or comfort me . evnthough he knew dat was mai fault , he would try to cover it fer me . he's such a nice guy , a guy dat evry1 wanted him to be as a fren or brother . i cant tink of it if one day im goin to lost him . but nowadays , we're gettin far apart from day to day . 


dat day , KZ da sotong told me to not join mmnah sbp dis year nd let those f5 to join . den he asked me to join mmnah MSSS (august mayb) bcos dat tym f5 will preparin fer their spm . helo ? im one of pmr candidates nd pmr is earlier den spm okay . so f5 need to prepare , i dun need to prepare ? okay fyne !


but da most terrible thing is amarr oso said lyk dat to me . he said if eu cant join sbp , den join la msss bcos he dint tink so dat f5 will joinin dat tym bcos they wan to prepare fer their spm . i jus dun undrstnd nd i cant blieve dat amarr said lyk dat to me . nd nd he said to me dat jgn asyik sala an org laen . he nvr , NEVER said lyk dat to me bfore . mayb is ryte dat people will change nd cant stay da same . 


never mind , amarr . mayb eu're ryte dat i kept on blaming other but i still tinkin dat eu shudnt treat me lyk dat . eu shudnt support them jus bcos eu're in da same batch as them . as eu wished , amarr i let go archery . i'll let all of eu goin fer dis year . i dun care bout it anymore . i jus wanted to say dat im sort of DISAPPOINTED instead of angry . i dun care if eu still tinkin dat im wrong .


i jus wanted to tell eu dat miss da past amarr . da past amarr fer sure will be at mai side , he will support me . evnthough if he dint support me , he still will make me comfort . im sory to say dat . but eu're still da best guy fer me to share mai probs , amarr . hope eu'll read dis post . 

a new LOVE ?

NEW LOVE ? humm ~ i dun tink so . i stil cant open mai heart to any1 else afta he had hurt me so badly evnthough dat was almost 1year ago . but da scar is still located ther in da bottom of mai heart . i dunno why , i stil can make da scar disappear ? shud i make a plastic surgery to remove da scar ? haha . its shudnt been say as plastic surgery , it shud be say as some miracle perhaps . 


"ILOVEYOU" , please dun say dat word to me if eu dint mean it cos i cant accept it if eu jus playin wif me by using dat word . if eu mean it , den tell me why eu love me ? bcos of mai face ? GOSH ~ eu jus saw mai pitc den eu jus fell in love wif me , dat eu called as a LOVE ? NOO ~ if eu love me bcos of mai face , why dun eu go fer a plastic surgery to have a face dat luks lyk me ? eu love me bcos of mai true self ? how well do eu noe me ? so , do tink twice bfore eu wan to tell me dat word dat havin so much meanings . TINK TINK TINK ! please dun jus straightfoward telling me dat eu love me without tinkin or not eu'll be very regret !


if eu tink dat eu seriously , i meant SERIOUSLY love me nd no doubt , 102% SURE of it , tell me den . but please tell me in a nice way dat can make me blieve in eu . so , dun simply telling me dat eu love me cos i might be misundrstndin wif eu . afta dis , do THINK FIRST yea ! its not dat gud fer me to misundrstndin wif eu cos eu will be very regret of it . 


fer those hu truly love me but not yet tell or yet told me , thx :) i very appreciate dat love but are eu telling me da truth ? QUESTION MARK ! haha . jus make sure 1st ur feeling , den eu tell me or not please dun eva , eva cum to find me if eu're not sure yet . :) 


IF EU LOVE ME , I'LL LOVE ME but mayb in a different way . haha . :)


nd fer dis sum1 dat told me he loves me ,
thx fer loving me but i will dun lyk to tell eu dat mai heart is still closed . mayb dis is a wrong tyme but i'll try to be as nice as i can . so dun worry . jus try to do sumthing dat might can make mai heart open again . hahaha , but i wanted to tell eu dat im sorry if eu tink im lying to eu . i dint mean it . if eu seriously love me , eu'll wait fer me . jus make sure ur heart 1st , no hard feelings ryte :)


nd fer those guys dat always told they love me ,
thx too fer telling me dat eu love me but i cant make sure whether do eu truly meant it or eu jus tgh isi ur mse lapang ? evry tyme eu tellin me "loveyou" , "loveyou" , do eu seriously meant it ? i jus dun undrstnd why eu tellin me dat eu love me while eu havin other person in ur heart ? howeva , thx yea fer tellin me sum FALSE statements . evnthough its FALSE but im happy , thx . :)


PLEASE MAKE SURE UR HEART BFORE TELLING ME EU LOVE ME THXX ^^

Archery ~

archery , humm ~ how shud i start it ? ermm ~ dat wednsday , da SOTONG ( our new archery teacher ) said sumthin o me . dis is our cnversation ;






sotong ; kar yan , awk tnggal kt ne ?


me ; puchong , asal ckgu ?


sotong ; bole ta klu awk dtg trainin kt area kl mse cuti . couch ad mse tuh . 


me ; tato , tgk cmne dlu la . btw , da wt pmilihn ka ?


sotong ; tade pmilihn sbb couch tade mse na wt pmilihn . so kite hnta je la yg 3 org sdia ad tuh ( k.mas,k.zaty,k.narus )


me ; means skng sy ta msok la ?


sotong ; ye , tp sy try mohon kt pngetua utk bwk awk pegi sna . at least , awk bole amek pngalamn .






WATTHAFUCK ? eu ask me to go smata2 utk amek pngalamn ? na i bazir tnaga , mse , burn kulit smata2 utk amek pngalamn ? FUCK KO ! den ap yg ak dpt ? sijil tade sume tade , tp pngalamn ? BABI ! den i tros blah . keesokn hri ny , trsrempak nan SOTONG tuh . den dy ckp na jmpe jap . okay la , fyne ! dis is our cnvrsation ;






sotong ; awk mara ka ?


me ; ye la , ckgu mne bole plih cm ney skng . sy pn na msok gak . so slame ney sy tron trainin susa2 tade mkne la ?


sotong ; bkn , skng dorng f5 . dorg pelu an sijil so sy pn bg la dorg msok . awk an f3 , awk ad 2taon ag .  


me ; sy pn pelu an sijil gak !






den ad byk ag , i da mls na taip cos tramat bengang !!!! babi pukimak gle ! skng sotong tuh plih org based on their ages not PERFORMANCE !!!! babi ny sotong ! tnggu mse je , na je ak cabut rmbut dy skali gus !!! erghh ~